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Dear Payton~

I love your squishy cheeks and your chubby little toes. I love that you'll randomly come hug me and tell me you like me. I love that you sneak into my bed at night. I love the smirk on your face when you're being defiant.

I love everything about you, except for the fact that you're almost FOUR and I'm still wiping your butt.

Honestly.

I've never known a human being that poops as often as you do. You've been potty trained forever.

It was cute the first few times you yelled out, "MOM, CAN YOU WIPE MY BUTT?!" But now it happens 8 times a day. Can we be done with this?

Love
Mommy

Control

Like all mothers, there are times when I feel like I have no control over my kids or my life. I have a very specific routine for those times when I feel like the worst mother in the world. I feed and bathe my kids, give them a big hug, put them to bed, put on my jammies, get under my heated blanket, then I watch "Toddlers and Tiaras". It's a freak show that always brings me out of my funk.

Example:

Tom Hanks made the most amazing spoof of this show.  It is totally worth it to watch this entire clip.  I laughed so hard I peed my pants.  No Joke!

Sleepin' Babies

 I am fascinated by the sleeping habits of my boys.  I love that they are so close that they like to sleep with each other.  Even on nights when I say they have to sleep in their own beds, Jackson still sneaks down into Payton's bed and I find them like this.

 It's as if they fell asleep talking to each other.

 I found them like this last night.  They're cuddling.  They're actually cuddling.

 

 Sharing a pillow.  Look at those cute little faces.  And yes, that is a Santa hat on Jackson's head.  I think he was pretending to be Santa to make Payton laugh. 

Payton is now officially a Sunbeam.  

Although, according to him, he's a Snowbean.

{Christmas}

Nate was able to come home for Christmas!  We were so busy having fun that the only time I got the camera out was when we went to the temple for the Christmas lights.  

We had a great time, and now he's back "over there". 

We miss you babe!

bigger than my body gives me credit for

mom.  do i really need to wear this ridiculous sweater that you made for me?  i'm working hard to establish my street cred as the tough guy in the neighborhood and walking around in these feminine sweaters is not helping display my masculinity.  

i'm so embarrassed.  don't look at me.

Cry-Fest 2010

I've decided that I didn't just buy Milo out of a spur-of-the-moment need for something fuzzy to sit in my lap in the evenings while I read.

On Saturday my parents came into town and I offered to let them take both my boys back up to their house for a few days. I was planning on heading up there today for Thanksgiving so I thought it would be nice to have some alone time so I could get some big projects done.

I've sent Jackson to Grandma's house plenty of times before, but I've never sent Payton there before. Payton is always my little partner in crime. I thought I could handle 3 nights without my boys. I was already lonely by Sunday morning....

Yesterday I was preparing for my trip up to Idaho to see my boys and spend the holiday. I kept feeling uneasy about the trip so I checked the weather report and saw that there is a blizzard in eastern idaho (where my parents live) and when its done there it will head to SLC.

So unless I want to try my luck driving through a blizzard I'm going to be spending a few more days alone. Luckily I have my sweet, fury little Milo to fill a teeny tiny part of the void that I feel without my kids here with me.


So even though I'll be able to spend Thanksgiving a good friend, I'm still re-naming this holiday "Cry-Fest 2010" since I won't be with my babies.


HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

Pirate

I'm glad I'm not the only one that falls asleep with their eye patch on.

puppy love

Have you ever noticed how after someone has a baby that's all they can talk about for like 6 months afterward??

Well you can expect that with me.

But I'm not talking about a baby.

I'm talking about my puppy.




{I ♥ milo}

{photoshop}

I have two obsessions lately. One is the photos I took of the ocean while living in California. The other is editing said photos in Photoshop. I've pretty much edited all the photos worth editing.

Now guess what I'm doing with my free time??

I'm going through facebook finding other peoples photos of the ocean and editing them for my own pleasure.

On my cousins' facebook page I found some pictures from his trip to Florida and thought I'd brighten them up a little bit.

This is why Photoshop is the best thing in the world: